Fallen T.T

My 1st year 2nd sem result is just released.
Did check it but no mood after that.
ya.My result is like SHIT. Very SHIT.
Everything i expected was turned out to be worse in reality.
i shouldn't expect too much.the more you expect,the more you get depressed.
Really thought that the result will be much better than 1st sem but who knows,more worse than 1st sem.Fuck Off !!!
it was unexpected to me.Frankly speaking,i really can't accept such result. Such bloody bad result.
i'm thinking of whether the grades can reflect one's intelligence.If it can't be,then examination seems to be useless.But obviously,in reality,the society seems to be recognizing it to be used as a great tool to determine one's intelligence.
What making me to be so SAD is that my coursemates mostly of them get 1st class results.And i can't even get closer to the boundary of 1st class standard.i admit that i'm comparing myself with the others.Because i don't think i'm worse than them so perhaps i'm ENVY of others' good results.i know i'm not supposed to think in such way but it really does bother my thought since i know it.
In this situation,normally i would tell myself. Let the Past be the Past.But it seems malfunction to me.i can't even think in a positive way.
I suppose it will be taken up to 1 week in order to totally get rid of the bad feeling.i think i better keep myself calm down now.Very aggressive.perhaps you can feel it through my words.
The best way is NOT to COMPARE myself with the others. Just like Eddy said,result is mine so it is nothing to do with other person. Why do i need to care so much? ! I just passed 2 semesters and i only did badly in 1 semester. There are 6 semesters ahead of me to strive for my future.
I would tell myself to work smarter in next sem.The good thing is i regain my motivation when i know my poor result.i have lost my motivation since finished STPM.
If i can motivate myself to work smarter in the upcoming 6 semesters,i think i can achieve much more than i'm expecting.i think this is the only way to console myself and to calm myself down.
Trying to divert my thought to the positive side.
What i bother is that everytime i'm falling down,i will be standing up myself with a stronger me to face the challenges.
When i'm totally fine,I trust that I'll be back to the 1st class standard very soon.This is the promise to myself.1 failure won't ruin my confidence but will boost it instead.
ok,stop here.
Bye.