Wow ! Just deleted Dota just now. Said it at the beginning of the semester but then only did it just now. Anyway, feel relieved as i'm not going to play dota anymore for the rest of my 1st semester. It's another new start for me.
After tonight, I'll be more serious in my studies. I was really slacked for the 1st-half semester and i realize that i should spend more time in my revision instead of gaming. Ok ! Making a promise here. Starting from tomorrow onwards,I won't be slacking anymore. Wisely utilizes my time in my studies. Of course I know self-discipline plays an important role and I will try to ensure that it will be applied on me as well. In a nutshell, no more playing till finish my final exam.
Well, my best friend settled his problem recently and I felt proud of the way he handled the problem. but just want to tell him that I'll always be there supporting him no matter what happens. And I'm sure that if you lost something,you will gain something in return. Just maybe you can't realize it. Come on , Dude ! Let's strive for our future together ba !
Another stuff is luckily i didn't reveal my feeling to her or else I really dare not imagine the outcome. Now she still treats me as her friend and I have slowly reduced the number of sms sent to her cellphone. Of course the sms i sent her require no reply and just a very simple encouraged-type sms. No doubt that she is a nice girl and due to this reason,I have decided to invest my time to know her more and let the God decide for me if we are suitable to become couple or not. Don't need to rush what since it has no deadline. lolx. Now we still will encourage each other when chatting via msn,I'm satisfied with it now.
So,in short,almost all the problems that could affect my studies now already solved and it's time to perform my best already. I don't want to give any excuses if finally I get a bad result.
Ok. now It's the time to rest also. Don't try to look down on me because when I mean serious, then I really mean it.
Bye !
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Saturday, September 27, 2008
~Nice Thought~
Yeah ! I like these meaningful pictures. It means a lot to me.
Hope you all will like it as well.
bye !
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
~emo~
Once I feel emo,then I feel like blogging.
Actually emo for many reasons. 1st-ly, of course is my studies. All in a mess. Shit ! thought that i could settle down once i get my own room but who knows, still so lazy. Lagging damn behind. The biggest prob is i lost the momentum or motivation. that's what i'm worrying about. hopefully i can slowly regain my form soon la.
2nd-ly,for the girl i like. I think that she slowly feels that i like her but i think it doesn't matter. Prob is would she ignore me after she knew that?! that's my concern. Just like what i told WeiChun,she won't like me because i could feel the impossibility. She is a nice girl who has guys to let her choose and certainly i'm not the lucky guy. What i'm doing is that i just keep supporting her and hopefully she is feeling great everyday. that's all i'm wishing for.
frankly speaking,i really want to tell her that i like her but when i think of the side-effect then i dare not to do that because i rather remain silent than losing a friend.
I have another stupid thought now. i think i'm going to give up because i feel that my sms will cause her feel irritating as well as i msn her. actually it's gonna to be the only effective solution but i admit that it's a bit too cruel to me because i'm reluctant to give up but something keeps disturbing my mind to have such a silly thought. Should i or shouldn't i?
if i should do that, would i feel regret after making the decision? if i shouldn't do that,is it i'm torturing myself still? it seems quite difficult to find a balance between both decisions.
My evil side tells me that i should give up but another side advises me that i shouldn't do that.
tonight is going to be very emo till can't go to bed although i'm very tired now.Sometime i think properly,there is no source for the emo-ness coming from. just feel that it's not feeling well in the heart but you know there's no solution exist.
i know my feeling towards her is true and she is the 3rd girl that i have such a feeling since PT and WX. If i'm not controling myself well,it's gonna to drive me crazy.lol. sound like a serious stuff but i think i could control myself,perhaps.
ok.going to sleep now.
see ya.
Actually emo for many reasons. 1st-ly, of course is my studies. All in a mess. Shit ! thought that i could settle down once i get my own room but who knows, still so lazy. Lagging damn behind. The biggest prob is i lost the momentum or motivation. that's what i'm worrying about. hopefully i can slowly regain my form soon la.
2nd-ly,for the girl i like. I think that she slowly feels that i like her but i think it doesn't matter. Prob is would she ignore me after she knew that?! that's my concern. Just like what i told WeiChun,she won't like me because i could feel the impossibility. She is a nice girl who has guys to let her choose and certainly i'm not the lucky guy. What i'm doing is that i just keep supporting her and hopefully she is feeling great everyday. that's all i'm wishing for.
frankly speaking,i really want to tell her that i like her but when i think of the side-effect then i dare not to do that because i rather remain silent than losing a friend.
I have another stupid thought now. i think i'm going to give up because i feel that my sms will cause her feel irritating as well as i msn her. actually it's gonna to be the only effective solution but i admit that it's a bit too cruel to me because i'm reluctant to give up but something keeps disturbing my mind to have such a silly thought. Should i or shouldn't i?
if i should do that, would i feel regret after making the decision? if i shouldn't do that,is it i'm torturing myself still? it seems quite difficult to find a balance between both decisions.
My evil side tells me that i should give up but another side advises me that i shouldn't do that.
tonight is going to be very emo till can't go to bed although i'm very tired now.Sometime i think properly,there is no source for the emo-ness coming from. just feel that it's not feeling well in the heart but you know there's no solution exist.
i know my feeling towards her is true and she is the 3rd girl that i have such a feeling since PT and WX. If i'm not controling myself well,it's gonna to drive me crazy.lol. sound like a serious stuff but i think i could control myself,perhaps.
ok.going to sleep now.
see ya.
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